The Vent Fest
Random Quote of the Day: "I am the chafing doctor!" -me
If you want to know the remidy to avoiding the chafage, you now know who to talk to.
I have all new roomates, and it has taken a while to settle in, but I think we are finally there. They aren't as stupid as the old ones. I like them pretty well, and have fun talking story with them. Their names are Shelly, Sandra, Nikie, and Rachel. Nikie and Rachel are taken, and Sandra has a bf on the main land, but Shelly is available and very cute for anyone who wants to know.
This weekend was great. I didn't have to work Saturday, so I spent the day lounging, went to the beach with Shelly, and got to wear my new swim suit finally. If you want to know what it looks like, you can just look at my burn lines. Then I did a little bit of homework, and hung out with friends at Erika's really cool cabin looking house that reminds me of my house in Washington. We played games and enjoyed our own personal band (Shem on Guitar, and Nephi on the Ukulele).
Sunday I went to church and met the hottest guy ever. I borrowed his pen, and am now planning a wedding (just kidding Mom). I also saw him in the Sea Sider today, and ate lunch with him. I was shocked to find that he is hot AND intelegent. Wow!
(and Carr Carr is the greatest!!!!!!!) Carr Carr is improving her typing skills apparently, and we are all so proud.
I have found lately that life is life, and we have little to no control over it. I have decided just to live with it and be happy with whatever is given me. It is somewhat depressing though that I now look at my destiny as being not what I make it, but rather what my circumstance makes it. I believed up until now that you can be what you want to be, and I am finding that it isn't so. The fact that everything in my life seems to be out of my control, is making me feel as though I have no control over anything, and that leads to learned helplessness (stupid psychology class), which is right where I am headed. I am just rolling over, and letting life take what it wants. Is that so bad? It is too hard to want something so bad and work so hard for it, then watch it blow away with the wind. Right now all that I want is to finish school and go home. I don't want to worry about how good my grades are, or how much money I have, or how much fun I have, or how many people I help. I just want to do it and get it over with.
I am happy, don't get me wrong, and I have been so blessed by God's grace, especially in the last week, but my attitude of school, and how I do in it has changed so much. I still do my homework, but with less motivation to do my best. Where am I going with this? I am not sure. Just a venting fest I think.
If you want to know the remidy to avoiding the chafage, you now know who to talk to.
I have all new roomates, and it has taken a while to settle in, but I think we are finally there. They aren't as stupid as the old ones. I like them pretty well, and have fun talking story with them. Their names are Shelly, Sandra, Nikie, and Rachel. Nikie and Rachel are taken, and Sandra has a bf on the main land, but Shelly is available and very cute for anyone who wants to know.
This weekend was great. I didn't have to work Saturday, so I spent the day lounging, went to the beach with Shelly, and got to wear my new swim suit finally. If you want to know what it looks like, you can just look at my burn lines. Then I did a little bit of homework, and hung out with friends at Erika's really cool cabin looking house that reminds me of my house in Washington. We played games and enjoyed our own personal band (Shem on Guitar, and Nephi on the Ukulele).
Sunday I went to church and met the hottest guy ever. I borrowed his pen, and am now planning a wedding (just kidding Mom). I also saw him in the Sea Sider today, and ate lunch with him. I was shocked to find that he is hot AND intelegent. Wow!
(and Carr Carr is the greatest!!!!!!!) Carr Carr is improving her typing skills apparently, and we are all so proud.
I have found lately that life is life, and we have little to no control over it. I have decided just to live with it and be happy with whatever is given me. It is somewhat depressing though that I now look at my destiny as being not what I make it, but rather what my circumstance makes it. I believed up until now that you can be what you want to be, and I am finding that it isn't so. The fact that everything in my life seems to be out of my control, is making me feel as though I have no control over anything, and that leads to learned helplessness (stupid psychology class), which is right where I am headed. I am just rolling over, and letting life take what it wants. Is that so bad? It is too hard to want something so bad and work so hard for it, then watch it blow away with the wind. Right now all that I want is to finish school and go home. I don't want to worry about how good my grades are, or how much money I have, or how much fun I have, or how many people I help. I just want to do it and get it over with.
I am happy, don't get me wrong, and I have been so blessed by God's grace, especially in the last week, but my attitude of school, and how I do in it has changed so much. I still do my homework, but with less motivation to do my best. Where am I going with this? I am not sure. Just a venting fest I think.
posted by Momma Jolley | 9/13/2005 01:20:00 AM
1 Comments:
wow love. . . dark no??? can we talk later??
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